When Insecurity Rears Its Ugly Head

insecurityInsecurity. Just the word sends shivers up my spine. Ugh. I hate it. The little bugger doesn’t come up often, but when he does, I want to run away and hide. Lies flood my mind:

Who are you kidding? You can’t do this. You’re nobody. You’re not like them. Nobody sees you. Nobody cares. You’re not good enough. FAIL. See, you’re not as great as you thought. You should just give up. This isn’t going to work.

Deep breathe.

LORD, FLOOD MY HEART WITH YOUR TRUTH! It’s true, I can’t do this—on my own. I don’t really know what I’m doing. But I want to trust you. You have called me to this. You have a purpose for me that you are not going to abandon. This is your adventure for me. And it’s thrilling, exciting—and hard. I am brought to my knees today. I’m just little ol’ me. But I’m YOUR little ol’ me. I belong to you. I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me. You will lead me through. You will help me. You are my refuge. You are my strength. I need you Lord.

I think the problem with insecurity is that it causes our eyes to be on us.

What do they think of me? I can’t do this. I’m a failure.

But when our focus is on Jesus, insecurity flees.

No longer do we care about what they think of us, but rather we’re fixed on what God thinks of us. The impossible becomes possible because God is with us, he is for us, He fights for us and works in and through us. And the reality is, yes we will fail. But that doesn’t mean we give up. It means we keep going. Every world changer, inventor, creator, artist has failed at some point in their life. But the key is that they kept going. They used their failure as a learning opportunity and were better because of it.

No, insecurity I will not run away and hide. I will look to Jesus and be covered by the shadow of His wings. You can run away. Run far away. I am HIS. And He’s got this. I will keep running, keep obeying, keep trusting. My God reigns and He’s got this.

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